…still awake.

Over the last couple of months, I’ve become more and more convinced that I actually birthed a cyborg last February: a small being that somehow requires no sleep at all to function with an absurdly high level of energy.

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You can imagine the look on my face at Annika’s six-month pediatrician check-up earlier this week when the PA asked whether she was sleeping eight-hour stretches. El oh el. It would be a banner night in this household if we got half of that in one shot. Two or three hours at a time is the regular.

And that is why I haven’t been blogging, or running, or really doing much of anything except still being mostly in survival mode. Yes, I know about sleep training. We actually had a meeting with a sleep consultant a while back who recommended some other things we should work on first before we head to Ferbersville, and we haven’t quite mastered those things yet. And honestly, I’m just not sure if I’m ready for the whole cry-it-out thing.

So we’re staying the course for now, keeping our heads just above water most days, and watching this crazy little person grow and learn and change at what feels like breakneck speed.

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At six months, Annika is:

– Sitting up unassisted. She’s been doing that for a while now.

– Eating solid foods, mostly fruits and veggies. She’s shown at least a passing interest in most of the things we’ve offered her, but black beans were not well received.

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– Moving/scooting/army-crawling? It’s not crawling but she manages to move herself around somehow while on her belly. She’s better at going backward than forward.

– Pulling up to stand on her own. She did this the day before she turned six months. It’s like she takes our lack of baby-proofing so far as a personal challenge. (Urgh, getting on that.)

– Saying “MAMAMAMAMAMA” (not to me, just in general) and making this weird yowling noise at Parker when he meows.

– Laughing, especially when her tummy is kissed.

– Grabbing and getting in to everything that she can get her hands on.

She really is an incredibly determined, strong baby. Some days I just watch in awe at what she can do, particularly when she sets her mind to something.

And then I look to make sure she isn’t plugging herself in somewhere to charge. Because I’m exhausted just watching her.

Speaking of exhausted, I’m not running much: once or twice a week, maybe. It just isn’t a priority right now. I keep hoping that will change soon when Annika starts sleeping more, but at the rate we are going that’s going to be when she enters kindergarten, so I’ve just resigned myself to being a little doughy.

It’s kind of funny how focused I was, in retrospect, with running and exercising regularly when I was pregnant. I thought it would make getting back into shape after baby so much easier. And now I’m all like, meh, being in shape is overrated. To be honest, being a parent has kicked my ass a little more than I expected it to. I do hope to start some short runs with the BOB in the next month or two, now that Annika’s over the six month mark.

So there’s my update. Until next time, when maybe I can write a post entitled “finally asleep.”

13 responses to “…still awake.

  1. She is so adorable! I love her expressions and while I disagree with her about black beans, I love her face and respect her right to have an opinion.

    I have my own little six month old terror that never sleeps. Well, never sleeps alone. I’m also not running. Averaging a run a month at this point. Tired all the time. Noticing that my formerly muscular legs are flabby and lacking any tone. I am officially skinny-fat.

    But when that little face smiles at you with those two little teeth and those little fat fingers grab your fingers, it doesn’t really matter.

  2. I totally feel your pain. My son is 19 months old and even now, if we make it through a night we celebrate in the morning. Last week he was up every night of the week, this week so far he has slept through just once – he seems too old for all that. I never knew that a child could have so much insane energy or that an adult could be so tired and sleep deprived, yet still somehow function at a passing level.
    My jogging stroller is used primarily for walking. I might run once or twice a month with it, but like… tired and hills and mehhh. I’m hopeful though. It has to get better, because it can’t get much worse!

  3. Priorities definitely change with kids, don’t they? I was running again soon after I had Logan, but then my husband’s work schedule changed and it’s next to impossible to squeeze anything in unless I want to wake up at 4am and run before work (spoiler: No, I do not!). He’s 2.5 and I’m STILL telling myself that “one of these days it will get easier” and I’ll run more regularly again. Of course, now I’m knocked up with #2 so it won’t be any time soon! But you’ve got the right idea, enjoy your little one first and foremost and just sqeeze in what you can, when you can.

  4. Priorities definitely change with kids, don’t they? I was running again soon after I had Logan, but then my husband’s work schedule changed and it’s next to impossible to squeeze anything in unless I want to wake up at 4am and run before work (spoiler: No, I do not!). He’s 2.5 and I’m STILL telling myself that “one of these days it will get easier” and I’ll run more regularly again. Of course, now I’m knocked up with #2 so it won’t be any time soon! But you’ve got the right idea, enjoy your little one first and foremost and just squeeze in what you can, when you can.

  5. she’s adorable. looks just like you!

  6. Love the update. Annika is a very cute cyborg. After I had my first baby, I had no idea how bad I would get my butt kicked. Running was not the biggest priorty at all, and when I felt like was getting back into shape I got pregnant with the second!

    The days are long, but the months and years will go by fast!

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  9. I empathize with having a “bad sleeper” and with prioritizing sleep over working out. I just started regularly working out a couple of weeks ago. Also, she is a cutie! I don’t think she is plugging herself in anywhere, just zapping your energy from you.

  10. Ugh. Babies.
    Paisley has decided that she’s hungry in the MOTN, so we are usually up between 2-5 and then up for the day btwn 6-7.

    Does Annika at least nap? Paisley takes one good nap, and then it’s hit or miss after that. We have to fight with her to take an afternoon nap…

    We are in a leap right now, so I have all my fingers & toes crossed that once this leap ends (19 more friggin days) that my little sleeper returns, and this whiney, screeching baby exits the scene.

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  12. It gets better.
    My first born didn’t sleep through until 2.5 years old. I was a zombie until then. It was very rough on me physically and on my marriage.
    Only thing I wish I had done differently: stopped listening to everyone that told me I was doing it wrong. I felt like failure because I had a very clingy baby that slept terribly (if, at all) and cried a lot. My experience in the first year to 18 months was vastly different than the other women I met in my baby bootcamp class.
    Happy to report he eventually slept through the night and we actually decided to have a second baby. The second baby has been a breeze. I’m not kidding. Easy. So different right from the start.
    I was ready to trying for #3 soon after and now #2 and #3 will be 22 months apart.
    You’re a great parent. Keep going. It will get better.

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